shinzou..

What do you do when,
the one who broke your heart,
is the only one who can fix it?
it is only if he was destined for me,rite?

I always blamed that unite us, but I have no right to think so, because it's all part of His 'provision' ..

hehe..jap ag de presentation..

n aq ley tdo coz tkot xbngn o t'ljak ka..hehe..smlm beriye2 nk ciapkn bod,smpai xmkn aq..huu..td lam kol 5 bwu mkn,qada' yg smlm punye..huu..sdapnye upenye lauk smlm 2,ase rugi lak xmkn smlm 2..huu, ni bod yg aq ciapkn smlm 2..huu..my own board..tp board akhr aq xske,cam plik jaa section aq 2..haihhh..

ni haa 1st board,

 

ni 2nd board

ni 3rd board haa..adeh..tp gmba yg laz 2 aq ske,kredit 2 zulamri..huhu..

ni laa actually design aq yg pling aq ske,hehe,yg ujong die 2 haa,logo 2..huu..besh3 dpt dsgn.,

 huu,design neh,mse mndesgn 2,ttbe lak current maty,xde letrik coz bpk aq nga kisar kacang kt bwh..huhu,berangin gle aq..huu,dalaa nk msukkn lam board,tp sabo gaklaa,berkt ksbrn 2..huhu,aq b'jye mndesgn 2..huhu..

ni plak yg tuk title block yg kt bwh 2..huhu,ermm,agk xbesh cket kot..huhu

nilaa die design logo 2,huhu,hasil gbngan brush n bbrpe wallpaper..edt2..tp yerlaa,dlm mngaler aq xpakar ag..huhu..msih mnuntut..huhu..msih de nmpk kkrgnnye ag..haha,am,am,sje nk mnceriakn blog aq,smpai gmba bwok pn msuk..pe daa..huu

haihhh,mcm2 jd arini..aq nk prnt xdpt prnt laa,2laa nilaa kdai uncle,kertas sangkut laa,die nk ttp laa,n then laser prnt lak tuk a4 jaa,pdhl ktwg da wat size a3,haihh,nk xnk,aq prnt jlaa ktas bese,nk edt jd a4 da xsmpt..huucian uncle,slh aq gak..pdnlaa muke aq..huu..lenkali jgn mnghrpkn org..k? am..lnkli uat sndri,puas aty,tau duration n ko kt mne skunk,the process..huu..aq mnghrpkn ka dia yg mnawarkn?actlly agk skit aty gak laa klo sik kne kco jaa,aq dalaa nk uat kja,haa,ko,da bownink cgtlaa kn,aq bg ko kja..huu,tp 2laa..xbgslaa mnghrpkn org...ko akn bnyk yg xb'puas aty..haihh..

tatkala pagi..

huh,wujudku bkn tuk dirimu,bgtu jua kamu..huhu,apakah?hee,kata2ku kpd c embun..huu
bkrjasama dgn kwn aq dak archie tu kdg2 besh gak..bnyk aq plajari dari die,n die gak..huu..
hmm,gnap sbln die b'sikap clake dgn aq..huu..so,ade aq kesa?keep goin laa bhai..till u get u're luck!
haihh,skunk neh stdy week,tp cam beselaa,xmcm stdy berlambak dgn kja2 stdio yg nk kna dsttlekn..mcm2laa am oii,t khms aq pn xpsty mau grak g sne ka x ea?huu,aq nk kna tnye c pka neh dolu..aq nk cuci mate,otak n yg plin pnting aty..huu..jadual pekse pn lom tau agy,pdhal isnn ni t paper 1st aq..seb bek laa 3 ppr jaa,tp 2 yg mnyengat aty n prasaan,so xley nk taip blog bnyk2,nk ciapkn kja dolula..k laa..tata~mayuchi no desu nooto..
anata wa itsumo,itsumo kawaii desu yo!!!huhu

phew,fullfill their expectation..ka..hmm

today I write again. When dawn breaks, when all the of them dreaming and sleep saddled, I'm awake, writing a blog that no one will read .. I'm just writing to myself, do not expect anyone to read it .. just me and myself .. 


hmm,nk cte pcl grp aq laa plak..hee..ni prsntation board ktwg..

 1st board,

2nd board, 

3rd board,

4th board,

5th board,

now,we'll proceed to our nex stage which is our detail area..ermm,i will update later my blogs..huhu..it doesn't matter for who, but absolutely for myself..hee..kankenai darou..

bicara yg t'sirat

kengkadang kite xdpt o xreti nk mmbicarakn yg t'sirat dlm dri,dan akhrnya yg t'sirat mnjd t'buku,kmudian juz mnjd sjarah yg tiada sapa dpt trokai hakikatnya..
Haihh,nmpk gayenye aq nk kne mlukis agy balek smule laa nie,hmm,dgn b'dakwatkn ink pencil,b'alaskn sketch book n b'tool'kn pmdm,dgn care ni saje yg buley mntntrmkn jiwe aq,stenang mkna namaku,amnani..

2dae words..

wanita yg suci adlh wanita yg dijaga oleh Allah, x sedikit pun Allah mbenarkan mana-mana llk mnyentuh hatinya...krn Allah teramat mnyintainya...TTp andai kita bgelumang dgn cinta llk di mana Allah utk mjaga kita? Allah spt mlepaskan kta kpd seorg manusia yng lebih byk mngecewakan kita. Jika Allah dtgkn ksedaran dlm diri spy mninggalkan cinta seorg llk, bmakna Allah mahu ambil kita kembali utk dijaga-Nya. MENGAPA MASIH RAGU-RAGU? ~ kekuatan usah ditunggu tapi harus dicari. "sebesar-besar dosa yang dilakukan adalah dosa yg dilakukan ktk kita rasa berdosa mlakukannya" (Imam Al-Ghazali)

deritakah merindu?

hmm, aq xphm cgtlaa ..hmm.. klo xcyg,nape ucap..?kalo xwindu,npe mncri?hmm..rindu 2 drita ka indah?
kdg2 laa kn,dri trase emo sndri,perlu ke bhagia 2 dtyg klo d akhrnye mnangis?huu~dmne sbb mngis 2 sndri xdkthui..skdr jiwe yg sdih mlpskn ayer mate..huhu~hmm..bnyk nk dcrte tp xt'taip dek jari,hnye hati yg b'bicare..hmm..huhu

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da true feeling rite now..

hmm..cmna nk cte..bnyk cte actually, tp xtau cmna nk crite..critera chenta ka..huhu..ase xsedap ble xdengaq soranya tuk sketika,rindukah itu namanya?atau skadar keterbiasaan?sbb t'biasa o windu? err,apakah? dlemakah aq?hmm,bnyk agy keja yg ley aq lakukn slaen mnglamun sensowg kn..

hmm..c'mon am,c'mon..aq nk btolkn hp yg wusak..demi nk b'on tenet d fon kn..hehe..aq nk ciapkn kja assgnmnt yg xciap..aq nk update my stdio work..hmm,ag,aq nk explore mende bwu o blaja sal sketchup, flash macromedia, gis sofware, ulead studio, sume 2 nk kna explore..whuarghhhh....dpt x aq nk uat sume 2 skali dlm mse cti yg cme de 2 mggu jaa nie?hmm, xkn aq juz nk tdo jaa nie?adehhh...c'mon, tp aq mstylaa kne tulun parents aq wat kje2 2..haihh.sempatkah?aduhhh,..

designku tuk program escape yg lps..

1st choice yg aq uat tol2,.tup2..2nd choice gak yg t'plih..adehh..

2nd choice-design banner aq..hmm..

nametag dak2 yg kanak2 spesial..huhu~

    

     

tadaa~yg ni spesial aq pnye..huu~

mkn d mcd..

haha~aq nga mkn kt mcd rini sensowg..klaka tol pristwa rni..huhu~kt mcd tmn sutera..aq ltaklaa elmet coz takot owg cop meja tmpt yg dkat dgn plag tu..huhu~then blilaa mknn,thought nk bli aer jaa kn..tp t'lajak laa plak coz t'pdaye dgn iklan2 n promosi2 c dak kaunter 2..huu~tp actually mmg aq nk bli tuk dptkn cup yg wane purple 2 laa kn stu2nye..hee~then g laaa nk duk kt tmpat jaa delaa mmat neyh dduk then aq t'hntilaa cuz nmpk de owg dduk kt tmpt aq dr jauh laa kn..huu~then die pn pasan n kate 'can i?i juz wanna watch bola jaa"huhu~agk rojak jgak laa ayt die..haha~aq katelaa..yup2,ok..huu~llaki mlay umo aq ase dlm 30smthg o what..haha~then tokenya lak..a.k.a manager mcd nie laa da cam nal aq jlaa kn,..yerlaa,aq salu dtg kot dgn kwn2 laki aq..salunye b'due laa kn..huu~then they thought ol of them skandal aq..haha~klakaq tol..huu~rmai cine laa,mkn smbil tgk bula..huu~then aq pn duk burak sama manager ni 4 da 1st tyme..pdhal msing2 xmngnali ntre satu sama len..hee~hmm..smbunk alek..b4 2 aq de prasan,eh,mne lak eskem nenas aq ?haha~upenyer dowg da amek laa kowt..huu~kesel2,mncri mcm nk rak laa kow..haha~then aq askin laa kt manager nih td,mne g eskem,n then die pn blur,asal eskem ko ley ilang lak..aq ckp aq mnelaa aq tau..huu~then die ckp xpa2,die akn gntikn..tp ~ ttp mntk ltk chocotop kt atsnye..huu~coz aq pna bli mse kt skudai parade cenggtu..huhu~syokjaa asenye..haha~then die pn bg,tp yg len,bwh ltak nnas,then ltk eskem,then atsnya skali laa plak ltak coklat..haha~katenye chocotop da abes..hmm..mlps..haha~then guy yg 30 lbey ni pn da nk alek..die tnyelaa aq bli elmet khi 2 bape..aq ckp laa aq bli kosong without design,rm50 smthg coz bkn ori agpn kn..haha~lntk laa jnji slessa..huu~then die pn bla..huhu~hmm,pleknye ary neh..hmm..huu~jnji xde p'kare yg aq xhingini b'laku laa kn..hopefully..huu~

jenjalan sama adeqku smlm

smlm g skudai parade..huu~abeh dlm rm80 uet aq bli suar sama baju..huu~

haha~we had a lot of fun yesterday..huhu~perhaps..huhu~then g mcd..tp aq alek dlm kul 5 maa,ase bdn cam mau dmm jaa kn..huu~

shizuka naa..?

sunyi jaa pg nie..yaah,exm aq da abeh,bnyk prncgn yg aq da rncang..antara t'tunai dgn x jaa kn?hmm..

t'sagt bnyk bnda yg aq nk buat..hmm..nta bley dgn x jaa kn..aq nak mlukis..spt sblm2 nie,maybe aq tenang  n epy go lucky sebelum coz aq curahkn prasaan aq mlalui lukisan..hmm..nta ar,aq mmg suke flow dr comic ben n the resketch alek..cam da very 1st,

wishing..

wondering..

 

hurting,.

crying..

        "like a knife it cuts me deep inside.."

confusing..

understandable ka?

all of my drawing shows my feeling,the way i'm crying, laughing, sincere, sad which is da most saddest tyme ever dat i had, appreciating, loving, caring..cute..da kinda feeling dat I'm wondering when it'll b mine..here it is..da drawing,my own drawing, inspired by ben from gempak starz..i've gathered ol of them 2ghthr here..

hmm..?

loving..

 caring and sincerity..

smiling..

sad..

stylishh..

couple?..

cute..

and also cute..huu~

wanna flying..freedom..

smiling..

hmm,cute..hee~da most latest..huu~

confusing..wondering..thinking..designing??huu~

what else dat i can describe here..hmmm..k laa,change da topic..here some of my design dat i need 2 be improved..juz some of it..
one of my design 4 banner during tripz 2 indonesia..huu~

name tag 4 de ajk, i'm 1 of them..huu~yaah,itz my design,except 4 da interior of da logo,edited by my senior,mine juz de outside designs..huhu~

yaah,itz me..design from da blank page till de end..mayuchi..hee~

1st one,pilihan dak2 laki,but da next one,for sure..mmg plihan wanita..huu~obviously here dat men n woman's choices are different..huu~

hmm,yg ni da xde kja..huu~sje2 wanna help my sister..hee~designing front page of her geog folio..hehe~

hmm,yg ni juz sbhgn jaa dr sumenyerr,..ade agy tp copynya ilang coz harddisk wosak..huu~cedey2..huu~
hmm,n now still agy m'design..hee~i'll post it later ..daa~

are u readyy??hehe~

hmm,aq mnulis blog nih juz 4 fun,n private, n xmnghrpkn  sspe pn mmbce actually..huu~jgn kcik aty lerr tmn2,honestly..huu~fuh,i was thinking n thinking,when will my wounds will b cured?since ianya x b'laku agy,aq akn twos2an mnulis blog yg bkn2 ni ka?huu~actually,bnyk bnde aq nk put here 4 ma fwenz 2 read it,but i'm not ready yet..perhaps..huu~sume aq smpn dlm draft dlu..tbe msenye aq akn postkn..huu~

since when..?till when..?

Enough 4 me saying here dat i'm juz a loser..
in everything..l.o.v.e, f.w.e.n.s.h.i.p, f.a.m.i.l.y,..
but y?I've tried everything dat i could so dat everyone would satisfied..
but still,I'm da one who're not satisfy with myself..
I've tried,n till now, i'm still trying to make it perfect..even i know dat there's none of it'll b perfect..
Until know,i'm still wondering,is there any love 4 me?
Aishite mo ii desu ka?naani attendayo?hmm..

ci nta dan kas ih say ang..

ketika kurasakan wujudnya cinta buat diriku, aku mrasa bahagia..walaupun untuk sementara..
Tetapi aku pasti akan kehilangannya, aq sudah b'sedia, sudah terbiasa, sudah ralat kata orang..
apa yang aku rasakan sekarang ialah, cinta bkn utkku, bukan buat diriku, bukan yang terpenting bagiku.
Ramai yang bersetuju bahawa b'sahabat adalah lebih baik dari b'cinta, antara sahabat dan cinta, sahabatlah yang paling berkekalan,
antara sahabat dan cinta, sahabatlah yang setia,
tetapi apakah pula cinta?sejujurnya, memang tidakku paham artinya..
jikalau bercerita mengenai kasih sayang, kasih sayang keluarga yang paling asas disebut2, tetapi bagaimana jikalau dalam keluarga itu sendiri tidak pernah mengungkapkan perkataan kasih atau sayang?apakah agaknya erti kasih sayang pada pandangan anaknya?
"mak sayangkan kamu, nak..".."sayang kat mak juge.."
"ayah saayang die..".."hehe, sayang ayah juge.."..dialog2 yang selalu wujud dalam drama, tetapi tidak pernah wujud bagi si anak..akan wujudkah perkataan itu nanti  dalam keluarga si anak kelak?perkataan kasih dan sayang yang tulus dari hati tanpa skrip ataupun paksaan, membuatkan dirinya terasa dihargai dan disayangi..
tetapi kadangkala, ungkapan tidak diperlukan untuk mengungkapkan rasa kasih dan sayang, cukuplah sekadar melalui perbuatan, tetapi bagaimana pula jika perbuatan itu tidak dimengerti malahan disalah erti..?
hmm..

tika claz dlangsungkn..huu~

skater gurlz sketches..

ktika claz yg membowinkkn..hmm..