what am i going to do after i've heard of what they're talking bout yesterday..hmm..after heard it..i dun know what kinda reaction dat i should create..4 a while im smiling,few minutes later i dun know what kinda reaction dat appears on my face,fuh,seb bek tmpt aq is a closed n private area..huu~maybe dat tyme, my mind is struggling thinking smthg o my heart is hurting..hurmm..dunno laa yarr..i need 2 motivate myself so dat,dat kinda expression did not bothering me 4 da whole time when i'm facing them ol..no matter what,i need 2 go,i need 2..we need 2 separate for awhile..or maybe a year..i don't know..i don't want people 2 know me,the more long-period of timt they stay with me,they'll started 2 know me,perhaps,what i show them is not da real of me,da fake one,perhaps,n they started 2 think that they know me WELL,huh!i'm juz acting laa yar,n i can see it through their action,n if da 'fake me' stated in their mind,then,i'll b kinda bad,terrible,worst,irresponsible,low-standard person..huh,datz not me laa yarr..datz da fake side of me,surroundings whose create da fake of me,persons at my surrounding..what da joke is that?what am i gonna do in da future?the unpredictable things would happen,n i dun like it,if da things is dat hurt n hurting me continously..i'm scared of if there's no more stock of heart's curing method left in my archive..dat'll b worst..seresly,it'll b worst..