da true feeling rite now..

hmm..cmna nk cte..bnyk cte actually, tp xtau cmna nk crite..critera chenta ka..huhu..ase xsedap ble xdengaq soranya tuk sketika,rindukah itu namanya?atau skadar keterbiasaan?sbb t'biasa o windu? err,apakah? dlemakah aq?hmm,bnyk agy keja yg ley aq lakukn slaen mnglamun sensowg kn..

hmm..c'mon am,c'mon..aq nk btolkn hp yg wusak..demi nk b'on tenet d fon kn..hehe..aq nk ciapkn kja assgnmnt yg xciap..aq nk update my stdio work..hmm,ag,aq nk explore mende bwu o blaja sal sketchup, flash macromedia, gis sofware, ulead studio, sume 2 nk kna explore..whuarghhhh....dpt x aq nk uat sume 2 skali dlm mse cti yg cme de 2 mggu jaa nie?hmm, xkn aq juz nk tdo jaa nie?adehhh...c'mon, tp aq mstylaa kne tulun parents aq wat kje2 2..haihh.sempatkah?aduhhh,..

designku tuk program escape yg lps..

1st choice yg aq uat tol2,.tup2..2nd choice gak yg t'plih..adehh..

2nd choice-design banner aq..hmm..

nametag dak2 yg kanak2 spesial..huhu~

    

     

tadaa~yg ni spesial aq pnye..huu~

mkn d mcd..

haha~aq nga mkn kt mcd rini sensowg..klaka tol pristwa rni..huhu~kt mcd tmn sutera..aq ltaklaa elmet coz takot owg cop meja tmpt yg dkat dgn plag tu..huhu~then blilaa mknn,thought nk bli aer jaa kn..tp t'lajak laa plak coz t'pdaye dgn iklan2 n promosi2 c dak kaunter 2..huu~tp actually mmg aq nk bli tuk dptkn cup yg wane purple 2 laa kn stu2nye..hee~then g laaa nk duk kt tmpat jaa delaa mmat neyh dduk then aq t'hntilaa cuz nmpk de owg dduk kt tmpt aq dr jauh laa kn..huu~then die pn pasan n kate 'can i?i juz wanna watch bola jaa"huhu~agk rojak jgak laa ayt die..haha~aq katelaa..yup2,ok..huu~llaki mlay umo aq ase dlm 30smthg o what..haha~then tokenya lak..a.k.a manager mcd nie laa da cam nal aq jlaa kn,..yerlaa,aq salu dtg kot dgn kwn2 laki aq..salunye b'due laa kn..huu~then they thought ol of them skandal aq..haha~klakaq tol..huu~rmai cine laa,mkn smbil tgk bula..huu~then aq pn duk burak sama manager ni 4 da 1st tyme..pdhal msing2 xmngnali ntre satu sama len..hee~hmm..smbunk alek..b4 2 aq de prasan,eh,mne lak eskem nenas aq ?haha~upenyer dowg da amek laa kowt..huu~kesel2,mncri mcm nk rak laa kow..haha~then aq askin laa kt manager nih td,mne g eskem,n then die pn blur,asal eskem ko ley ilang lak..aq ckp aq mnelaa aq tau..huu~then die ckp xpa2,die akn gntikn..tp ~ ttp mntk ltk chocotop kt atsnye..huu~coz aq pna bli mse kt skudai parade cenggtu..huhu~syokjaa asenye..haha~then die pn bg,tp yg len,bwh ltak nnas,then ltk eskem,then atsnya skali laa plak ltak coklat..haha~katenye chocotop da abes..hmm..mlps..haha~then guy yg 30 lbey ni pn da nk alek..die tnyelaa aq bli elmet khi 2 bape..aq ckp laa aq bli kosong without design,rm50 smthg coz bkn ori agpn kn..haha~lntk laa jnji slessa..huu~then die pn bla..huhu~hmm,pleknye ary neh..hmm..huu~jnji xde p'kare yg aq xhingini b'laku laa kn..hopefully..huu~

jenjalan sama adeqku smlm

smlm g skudai parade..huu~abeh dlm rm80 uet aq bli suar sama baju..huu~

haha~we had a lot of fun yesterday..huhu~perhaps..huhu~then g mcd..tp aq alek dlm kul 5 maa,ase bdn cam mau dmm jaa kn..huu~

shizuka naa..?

sunyi jaa pg nie..yaah,exm aq da abeh,bnyk prncgn yg aq da rncang..antara t'tunai dgn x jaa kn?hmm..

t'sagt bnyk bnda yg aq nk buat..hmm..nta bley dgn x jaa kn..aq nak mlukis..spt sblm2 nie,maybe aq tenang  n epy go lucky sebelum coz aq curahkn prasaan aq mlalui lukisan..hmm..nta ar,aq mmg suke flow dr comic ben n the resketch alek..cam da very 1st,

wishing..

wondering..

 

hurting,.

crying..

        "like a knife it cuts me deep inside.."

confusing..

understandable ka?

all of my drawing shows my feeling,the way i'm crying, laughing, sincere, sad which is da most saddest tyme ever dat i had, appreciating, loving, caring..cute..da kinda feeling dat I'm wondering when it'll b mine..here it is..da drawing,my own drawing, inspired by ben from gempak starz..i've gathered ol of them 2ghthr here..

hmm..?

loving..

 caring and sincerity..

smiling..

sad..

stylishh..

couple?..

cute..

and also cute..huu~

wanna flying..freedom..

smiling..

hmm,cute..hee~da most latest..huu~

confusing..wondering..thinking..designing??huu~

what else dat i can describe here..hmmm..k laa,change da topic..here some of my design dat i need 2 be improved..juz some of it..
one of my design 4 banner during tripz 2 indonesia..huu~

name tag 4 de ajk, i'm 1 of them..huu~yaah,itz my design,except 4 da interior of da logo,edited by my senior,mine juz de outside designs..huhu~

yaah,itz me..design from da blank page till de end..mayuchi..hee~

1st one,pilihan dak2 laki,but da next one,for sure..mmg plihan wanita..huu~obviously here dat men n woman's choices are different..huu~

hmm,yg ni da xde kja..huu~sje2 wanna help my sister..hee~designing front page of her geog folio..hehe~

hmm,yg ni juz sbhgn jaa dr sumenyerr,..ade agy tp copynya ilang coz harddisk wosak..huu~cedey2..huu~
hmm,n now still agy m'design..hee~i'll post it later ..daa~

are u readyy??hehe~

hmm,aq mnulis blog nih juz 4 fun,n private, n xmnghrpkn  sspe pn mmbce actually..huu~jgn kcik aty lerr tmn2,honestly..huu~fuh,i was thinking n thinking,when will my wounds will b cured?since ianya x b'laku agy,aq akn twos2an mnulis blog yg bkn2 ni ka?huu~actually,bnyk bnde aq nk put here 4 ma fwenz 2 read it,but i'm not ready yet..perhaps..huu~sume aq smpn dlm draft dlu..tbe msenye aq akn postkn..huu~

since when..?till when..?

Enough 4 me saying here dat i'm juz a loser..
in everything..l.o.v.e, f.w.e.n.s.h.i.p, f.a.m.i.l.y,..
but y?I've tried everything dat i could so dat everyone would satisfied..
but still,I'm da one who're not satisfy with myself..
I've tried,n till now, i'm still trying to make it perfect..even i know dat there's none of it'll b perfect..
Until know,i'm still wondering,is there any love 4 me?
Aishite mo ii desu ka?naani attendayo?hmm..

ci nta dan kas ih say ang..

ketika kurasakan wujudnya cinta buat diriku, aku mrasa bahagia..walaupun untuk sementara..
Tetapi aku pasti akan kehilangannya, aq sudah b'sedia, sudah terbiasa, sudah ralat kata orang..
apa yang aku rasakan sekarang ialah, cinta bkn utkku, bukan buat diriku, bukan yang terpenting bagiku.
Ramai yang bersetuju bahawa b'sahabat adalah lebih baik dari b'cinta, antara sahabat dan cinta, sahabatlah yang paling berkekalan,
antara sahabat dan cinta, sahabatlah yang setia,
tetapi apakah pula cinta?sejujurnya, memang tidakku paham artinya..
jikalau bercerita mengenai kasih sayang, kasih sayang keluarga yang paling asas disebut2, tetapi bagaimana jikalau dalam keluarga itu sendiri tidak pernah mengungkapkan perkataan kasih atau sayang?apakah agaknya erti kasih sayang pada pandangan anaknya?
"mak sayangkan kamu, nak..".."sayang kat mak juge.."
"ayah saayang die..".."hehe, sayang ayah juge.."..dialog2 yang selalu wujud dalam drama, tetapi tidak pernah wujud bagi si anak..akan wujudkah perkataan itu nanti  dalam keluarga si anak kelak?perkataan kasih dan sayang yang tulus dari hati tanpa skrip ataupun paksaan, membuatkan dirinya terasa dihargai dan disayangi..
tetapi kadangkala, ungkapan tidak diperlukan untuk mengungkapkan rasa kasih dan sayang, cukuplah sekadar melalui perbuatan, tetapi bagaimana pula jika perbuatan itu tidak dimengerti malahan disalah erti..?
hmm..

tika claz dlangsungkn..huu~

skater gurlz sketches..

ktika claz yg membowinkkn..hmm..

dalam diamku..

Telah ku pilih jalan ini
Meski kini ku sendiri
Renungi erti sepi
Tak lagi ada satu kata
Satu jiwa dalam cinta
Yang ada hanya hampa

Semakin terasa
Semakin berbeda
Sungguh sangat menyeksa

Kata hatiku
Kusimpan dalam diam
Tak perlu ucap lagi

Kau kan mengerti suatu hari
Mengapa harus terjadi
Semakin terasa
Semakin berbeda
Sungguh sangat menyeksa

Sepiku lara
Hatiku hampa
Kerana cinta
Menyeksa di dada

Lelah aku mencari
Ruang cintamu
Untuk cintaku
Bagi cinta ini

Lelah terus berlari
Tanpa bererti
Membelah hati
Terumbang-ambing dalam kebimbangan

Daku terus mencari...
Terumbang-ambing dalam kebimbangan

Yang hilang biarlah menjadi kenangan
Biarkanlah... lepaskanlah...

Telah ku pilih jalan ini
Meski ku sendiri
Renungi erti sepi

uwaarghhh..LA is a blood sucker..huu~

gilak3..crazy stuff..uwaa..know y?coz da str8 3 days,i took my dinner as  breakfast n lunch,n 2 pon,megi..huu~mom~i wanna b free~without commitment,lectrr dat keep forcing,threatening..uwaa..wanna fly away..away from ol of diz..c'mon am,c'mon..hmm..

sucks day..

aq tlah dtunjukkn ssuatu..n aq tlah dpt mmastiknnye dr ctu..yaaah,datz da fact..what i can do here is dat,people all around me,da most n vry kind wit me,suddenly i find out dat they're juz acting cool..haha~nothing special huh!but after i found out,quite hard laa yar my heart 2 accept dat..juz now i need 2 b more careful in choosing a fwenz..not all of them r kind,not all of them r cool,nice n etc..datz ol sucks 4 me,liar avrywhere...

naani atten dayo..?

what am i going to do after i've heard of what they're talking bout yesterday..hmm..after heard it..i dun know what kinda reaction dat i should create..4 a while im smiling,few minutes later i dun know what kinda reaction dat appears on my face,fuh,seb bek tmpt aq is a closed n private area..huu~maybe dat tyme, my mind is struggling thinking smthg o my heart is hurting..hurmm..dunno laa yarr..i need 2 motivate myself so dat,dat kinda expression did not bothering me 4 da whole time when i'm facing them ol..no matter what,i need 2 go,i need 2..we need 2 separate for awhile..or maybe a year..i don't know..i don't want people 2 know me,the more long-period of timt they stay with me,they'll started 2 know me,perhaps,what i show them is not da real of me,da fake one,perhaps,n they started 2 think that they know me WELL,huh!i'm juz acting laa yar,n i can see it through their action,n if da 'fake me' stated in their mind,then,i'll b kinda bad,terrible,worst,irresponsible,low-standard person..huh,datz not me laa yarr..datz da fake side of me,surroundings whose create da fake of me,persons at my surrounding..what da joke is that?what am i gonna do in da future?the unpredictable things would happen,n i dun like it,if da things is dat hurt n hurting me continously..i'm scared of if there's no more stock of heart's curing method left in my archive..dat'll b worst..seresly,it'll b worst..

2dae task..

1stly,meeting tuk gothic architecture..
then twoskn uat kja edit2 site P.G. autocad nya..hurmm..benkyo!ganbatte am!!
then nyte ni de meeting n barbeque..which 1 suppose i choose..hmm..
uwarrrgghhhh,hate autocad..tp syuuka bangat sama adobe..hmm,ble aq nk mahir autocad nih..aishh..

paramore-ignorance

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? You'r jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs, I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault but you know we're not the same
We're not the same
Oh we're not the same
Yeah the friends who stuck together we wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good
It's good

You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'l go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'l go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs, I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault but you know we're not the same
We're not the same
Oh we're not the same
Yeah the friends who stuck together we wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good
It's good

You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'l go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'l go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'l go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'l go
I best be on my way out

why is dat called the 'Hanging Babylon'?..

my task 4 my subject..

Q : Why is that they called the ‘Hanging Babylon’?

The Hanging Gardens of Babylon, also known as the Hanging Gardens of Semiramis, near present-day Al Hillah, Babil in Iraq, are considered to be one of the original Seven Wonders of the Ancient World. They were built by the Chaldean king Nebuchadnezzar II around 600 BC. He is reported to have constructed the gardens to please his sick wife, Amytis of Media, who longed for the trees and fragrant plants of her homeland Persia.^[1] The gardens were destroyed by several earthquakes after the 2nd century BC.

The lush Hanging Gardens are extensively documented by Greek historians such as Strabo and Diodorus Siculus. Through the ages, the location may have been confused with gardens that existed at Nimrud, since tablets from there clearly show gardens. Writings on these tablets describe the possible use of something similar to an Archimedes screw as a process of raising the water to the required height.^{[citation needed]} Nebuchadnezzar II also used massive slabs of stone, which was unheard of in Babylon, to prevent the water from eroding the ground.

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hanging_Gardens_of_Babylon , 3:30a.m., 21th January 2010.

They were called the ‘Hanging Babylon’  because it hung from the sky by sparkly cords of the angels. It is believed that the hanging gardens were built to please a kings' wife. THIS IS NOT TRUE. This was the garden of all of the mystical fairies of the 17th century. Anyways the hanging gardens were blessed by kings.  (wiki answer)

The Hanging Gardens probably did not really "hang" in the sense of being suspended from cables or ropes. The name comes from an inexact translation of the Greek word kremastos or the Latin word pensilis, which mean not just "hanging", but "overhanging" as in the case of a terrace or balcony.

Source : http://www.cleveleys.co.uk/wonders/gardensofbabylon.htm

Millennia after its destruction, the city of Babylon remain a symbol of extravagance and wealth. Its most celebrated feature was one of the ‘Seven Wonders of the World’. The so-called ‘Hanging Gardens of Babylon’ astounded and perplexed observers. In the first century BC Diodorus Siculus described them as ‘gardens suspended in the air’. From a distance they were described as looking like a terraced hillside, or the rows of seats in a Greek theatre.They are said to have been built for a favoured wife of Nebuchadnezzar who came from the mountainous country in the North. Some experts even believe that the ancient chroniclers got the location wrong and that the gardens were not at Babylon at all, rather that they were built centuries earlier by King Sennacherib of Nineveh.

But wherever they were located the mystery remains - how could such elaborate gardens possibly have been irrigated? Ancient sources describe a mysterious, hidden system of irrigation which carried water to the summit.

Source : Cosmo Learning History.

hmmm..nan youbi desu ka..ureshii no yobi desu ne..hee~

alhamdulillah,hari ni aq dpt memulakan hari dengan baik..sesuatu yang baik b'laku pada hari ini..terima kasih ya Allah. Terima kasih kerana memberikan hari yang baik ni,suasana serta mood yang baek,walopon agk mmnatkn..yang penting,hari ini atyku tdak mnglami kpedihan..pedih kerana sesuatu yang mungkin tidk sepatutnya berlaku,pedih seperti ary2 yg sblumnya..aq amat menghargainya..tetapi aq ttp perlu b'sedia tuk mse dpn,mse dpn xsalu mnjnjikn suasana yg sama sprtimne yg aq hrpkn..(gamuse yahdahi tui tangda dapake kua patan ansapak)

ahh..

ahhhhh,how am i gonna start my new day?hmm..

try 2 starting smthg new in ma life..

hmm..dunno,diz evening,i'll g 2 somewhere..hmm..hopefully it'll succes..nite claz..